Break open all the shackles....be free...be seamless...be one with the One...be Boundaryless..!!

You are me....I am You....We are the Universe...We are the trees, the insects, the animals.....We are Our Enemies...We are Our Hatred....We are the Love...Love thyself....You will love the Universe....Hate yourself....and you will discern that you are the most hated..!!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Reconfiguring Realities: Day 2 of Facebooklessness

No time for Love. No time to stand, relax and/or enjoy the wonder that the Earth is. In what world have I been living in all these years?

I have got a test to give by tonight. In five months, I will be graduating. I do not have a job yet. I want to start earning. I want to start having a steady flow of income. Who will give me the job? What should I be doing right now, to get that job?

Where should I go, whom should I contact for the job? I can't sit complaining my college at this stage. I can no more blame the circumstances. What I have, I have, what I do not, I do not. Nothing less, nothing more. It's all left to me now, what I do with what I have, and how I use what I do not have, to my own benefit.

Yeah. Enough of the trivialities. Meaningless rant. Misplaced, ill-timed discussions about things which are not even our immediate concerns.

Time to Reconfigure the Realities. Of life, of career, of job, of security.

No more conferences, no more anchoring, no more youth fests, no more showing off. What's there will always be there, what's not there, won't be there, unless I get them in place. So, why worry?

I got to work for the long term, not for the short term gratifications. Not for the friends at college, but for a bigger goal called life itself. Time to prepare for the Test!

Monday, February 10, 2014

I deactivated my Facebook Account

Yeah.

I remember I had done this before, just once, but very unwillingly, with a pain in my heart. But this time, I am glad that I have done it willingly. Even as I did it, my mind was giving me so many reasons to stay back on the site.

Why, even Facebook listed out some random names from my Friends' list and said all those people are going to "miss me"!! Seriously Facebook?

Sometimes I feel, Mark and Team have engineered Facebook to be addictive. They somehow have created it in such a way that just sticks to people's psyche in ways not comprehensible by the conscious mind. It's a dangerous mind game that they are playing.

I have experienced it. It is mentally very very addictive. Addictive for whatever reasons that may be.

I started using Facebook so that I do not feel lonely, and the more I use it, the more lonely I feel? How's this?

An eternal loop which never lets you live? It just strangulates you, day by day, inch by inch.

Sounds dangerous though. Well, mind is a funny tool. You know what it told me?

"You have your Youth24x7 team on Facebook, all the deadlines are announced on the site. You gotta share all the articles you write on Facebook, for professional reasons. You get to read articles on Facebook."

Dear Mind, No. I do not want to do all this. For just some time, I just wanna be left alone, all by myself. I wanna revel in this physical world, however unglamorous it may be.

Facebook isn't my world. It never can be my world. At present, Dharwad is my world. My college is my world. My studies is my world.

Not Facebook. Not my cell phone. Not the messages. Not the phone calls.

I am not a robot. I am a human being. I want to feel the water in ways I have never felt before. I wanna touch the grass, and the wet mud underneath, and I wanna thank God for all that He has given to me.

No, I do not wanna try to look good, because, in the end, I am going to be one with the mud, one with the water. Not even my bones are gonna remain of me.

I used to wonder who would operate my Facebook account when I die? Seriously?

What is Facebook after all? It's a company making profit. And why am I on Facebook? Just because all my friends are there.

I still remember my first year at law school when I wasn't on Facebook. Whenever people used to get to know that I ain't on it, they would be like, "What?! You are NOT on Facebook?" and they would give a cunning smile. Huh.

So, human psychology played its role. I wanted to be one among them. I wanted to be accepted.

Right now, I do not have a smart phone. I do not use Whatsapp. Sometimes I do feel I got to buy a Smartphone and I got to use Whatsapp.

But wait, why? Just because I can be in touch with people 24x7? Why? Facebook hasn't been enough for me to drive me crazy?

Some days ago, I read (on Facebook itself, my bad) that some research somewhere has proven that human beings haven't been created to be hooked to Facebook/ Twitter/ Smartphones; basically, the virtual world.

I do not know about the veracity of the research, but then, I feel it's true. Because I have experienced this.

I just want to count the number of days I am going to be Facebook-less. That is, in short, the number of days for which I am going to live my life. Because, I wanna actually live my life.

Not the life that Facebook asks me to live, though!

Day 1, today is. The Countdown Begins.

P.S.: For once, just once, I wanna gauge the success of my writing skills, not by the number of Page Visits I get on my Blog, but by the sheer strength of my resolution. For once, just once, I just wanna test my own strength. To stay true to my words. For once, just once, I do not want to popularize and advertise my feelings. For once, just once. For once, just once, I do not wana Facebook my Blog. For once, just once, I wanna write for myself only. And for you of course, if at all you happen to visit my Blog, for once, just once, at least.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

From Money Illa to Manila - A Journey to Remember

Hello Friends!

Though this has come around two weeks late, well, better late than never!

In many different ways and for many different reasons, this post is special for me.

Because:

  • I had thought about this title WAY BACK, around 3-4 months ago, even before my itinerary was confirmed. I am glad that it did get confirmed, and I did go!
  • This was/is my first travel abroad, and again, I am glad it happened!
  • I am glad, not only because I had planned to write this and share with you all, but then, some of you had looked forward to read about it, even before I told you that I would write about it. I thank you from the bottom of my heart!
So the pleasantries apart, this post MAY be a bit longer than the others (I do not yet know, because I cannot predict) but I will try to keep it as short as possible! Happy Reading!

First things first: What does the title mean?

For all of you who do not understand Kannada, the word "illa" in Kannada means "not there". Hence the title connotes to my journey from "No Money" to "Yes Money" and then finally to Manila!

Why No Money?

Clearly because of my mistake. Due to my own callousness and lack of seriousness towards my work and life in general, I had had pretty difficult time in bringing together the much needed money to fund my travel. But at last, I did get sponsored and the travel did materialise. I thank my stars for that! In all that I went through for months together, I learnt some great lessons about so many different things.

What Lesson(s)?

  1. Money IS DEFINITELY important: It definitely is not everything, but then, it IS SOMETHING. Something Indispensable. Something Important. Something Valuable. 
  2. Money Doesn't Come Easy: It Never Came Easy to Anyone, It Never Will. If it comes easy, take it that it is bound to GO easy. You gotta slog it out to get the money. You gotta shed blood, if not tears, if not sweat. But shed, you have got to. Something.
  3. There are good people on this Earth: There are people who see the fallibility of being human. There are people who are kind at heart, though they may appear to be strict. There are good people on this Earth.
  4. There is an advantage in being Young and making mistakes - You can commit as many mistakes as you can (not deliberately though!), and in the end, you would still get forgiven, anyways, though forgiveness may come late, or after putting in extreme efforts towards repentance. 
  5. I learnt to be responsible towards my self and my work: Never again, shall I behave irresponsibly towards my commitments, work or otherwise. Never again, shall I behave casually with myself. The price we get to pay by committing these mistakes, is very high. We can't expect to get second chances all the time!
  6. Life is Ruthlessly Uncertain, Get Used to It: I didn't know whether I would be truly going till I finally got my visa on just the day before I was scheduled to leave. But well, we do not really know whether we are going outside our home country, until the immigration check happens, isn't it? I bunked my last exam to attend this Conference. Today I wrote the penultimate exam, tomorrow I leave! People kept asking me, was it so important after all. I said Yes. I say Yes even now. It has been very important to me, for many reasons. I was prepared for the worst, and was hoping for the best. It was hard. The wait was painfully merciless. But all for my good. For the goodness of the Lessons I learnt!
  7. India is Beautiful: So, I say India is Beautiful after going outside? Yes! Sometimes we cannot truly appreciate the home we live in, unless we go outside and have a look at it, and also its surroundings! India is beautiful in many ways - first and foremost, the FOOD! First things first always! Indian food is unmatchable. It's priceless. Secondly, the vibrant culture and the wonderful lifestyle. Lifestyle needn't always be measured in GDP. It would be stupid to do that. (Not that GDP is unimportant; refer to Point 1).
  8. Lessons from ManilaThe Conference - It was called the 7th Asia Pacific Conference on Sexual and Reproductive Health and Rights. It was a HUGE conference, with representatives from the UN System, the MPs from different Asian Countries and representatives from various CSOs the world over. It was a great learning experience. The People were awesome. The environment was so inclusive and welcoming towards human and ideological diversity! I only wish the whole world gets the vibes of inclusivity! The Stay - Food was the biggest problem throughout, and as one of my friends put it, it always has been, and will always remain so. I just got to be better prepared next time. The Travel - My First Experience on Air! Hahahaha, I had the child's excitement in me, and on my face, when the plane took off and landed for the first time! It is truly memorable! My co-passengers too were nice, Goodness Gracious! :) The local transport at Manila - The Kalesa (as Tonga is called there) owner duped me, I had the experience of being a "foreigner" for the first time, The jeepney ride was homely. The Shopping - I absolutely LOVED the bit of shopping I did there!
  9. Excitement I cannot Hide *wink* : Seriously! It has been an exciting journey for me! The whole affair, from the pre-travel preparations, which themselves lasted for months together, to the consummation of all the affairs, to the buying of a camera (lol!), it has been fun! 
So much for the Journey! So much for the memories! So much for Life!

From Money Illa to Manila, it has been truly a Journey to Remember for ever!